Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Illustration Friday - Roots
This is actually an old painting, but I thought it fit the topic. I was thinking about my ancestry and my lack of roots, my search for identity. I'm half Asian and half Finnish, and in some ways feel connected to both sides of my ancestry, and in some ways estranged from both. I most definitely look Asian and have a Chinese last name, and I'm proud of my heritage. Most people perceive me as Asian because of the way I look, but should I identify more with one half simply because I look that way? I don't really know that much about Asian culture, so am I buying into the whole Asian pride thing just because of the way I look?
It's so complicated. 99% of the time I don't think about it at all, but every once in a while something will happen (like random strangers on the street talking to me in various Asian languages) to make me keenly aware of the fact that I look very Asian, while in reality I feel so disconnected from my roots.